I wrote some time ago - Testosterone - that I had been having trouble with the sexual side of things.
Looking back, it was August 2015 that we last had penetrative sex and nothing happens down below when I am next to her. Since 2016 I have tried to give her pleasure in other ways but that's stopped since January 2019. In all our years of marriage, I was usually the instigator and post-sex, I was often met with the comment, 'satisfied?' So, bollocks to it. If she instigates I will react but, otherwise, let it be.
Over the counter viagra ads sometimes pop up on the TV and she looks at me out of the corner of my eye but I really can't be bothered.
July 2020 update: Coming up the 5th anniversary of no-sex on my part. We sleep apart during the week anyway - as her snoring disturbs my sleep and we have come to that arrangement. On the weekends, we sleep in the same bed and, now and again, she will want sex. But, nothing happens with my 'machinery' - so, I provide some pleasure in other ways and that's the extent of our sex life.
And, you know what, I am not interested anyway; the mind and spirit are gone. I have had a testosterone test done again and mine remains marginally low - there appears to be no reason why everything should not work. But it doesn't and that may be down to psychology. Don't really care.
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