So I've started to look at some street-casting work - extras in films and tv or some advertisements.
It is very modestly paid but adds a bit of variety to my daily life!
'If it paid well,' I said, 'that is what I would do. Corporate life is not motivating me.'
'Of course work can be exciting,' she responded, 'Just because it didn't work out for you doesn't mean it can't be fun.'
This did hurt me a little, I have to admit. For sure, I haven't 'made it' and it is a level of rationalisation on my part to say that at least some of that is due to my wanting to play a large part in the home and be a 'present' father.
But, in gross terms, salary in the high £80ks since 2006, rising to six figures since early 2010s, nice house, private school, holidays, her choosing not to work till the last couple of years - plus a full part in the house, close to my son, home every day.
Then, in some context, we were talking about driving, and she says, 'that is one thing you are good at - driving.'
No need to dispute any of that and perhaps not meant in any nasty fashion - unlike 'aren't you ashamed of not having had a pay rise for five years.' Confidant: 61: Huge row - getting worse (dear-confidant.blogspot.com)
Too tired. It is what it is and life has happened. Whether I was lazy or whether I have been lucky enough actually to lead the balanced life I could have wished for, I don't know and who cares?
But a failure overall and only ability is as a good driver - I know where I stand!
Bon ....
